Afraid

Staring at the dark ceiling as I force to shut my eyes - it would not.Turned over to the side of the bed trying to get some sleep - I could not. Staring at my phone, it's half past 3 in the morning what can I do at these times - nothing. These sleepless nights has been dragging on for a week now. It haunt me so bad until I finally decided to blog about it.

As I have just graduated, everyone is getting ready for the job world. The job world has a lot of advantage - you get more knowledge, you earn money to reduce your mom's expenditure and finally you can start saving and treat your girlfriend that fancy dinner you saw on TV that you always thought it gives the idea of romance. However, that was not the case for me. Although there's one side of me being happy and finally given that sigh of I-did-shitzzz-in-uni-and-yet-people-want-me. Yea I am happy with the fact that I secured a job, happier when there are job offers but somehow I feel afraid. The worst part - I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M AFRAID OF. 

That was the shit right there. Most fear comes from not knowing. Like why are you afraid of ghosts? Because you do not know whether the ghost can hurt you or not. Why are you afraid of height? Because you  are not sure what is at the bottom waiting for you. Why are you afraid of the dark? Because you do not know what is in the dark. Why am I afraid to start work? I do not know. I afraid that the more this prolongs, the more it leads to fear. Annnnnd also to quote Yoda from Episode 1: The Phantom Menace - "Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to ...suffering."

Anyway, after blogging it out I feel much better. Thank you Blogger (and Ada - if you're reading this, give me a wink). What about you? Do you have any solutions to these problems? Please don't give me that don't-go-to-work bull. And to my avid readers, feel free to comment I can see you guys are always reading but leave nothing. Leave something for me. Don't be shy. I won't bite. If you are a pretty girl then leave your number so I can contact you and my problem will be instantly solved. =)

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